sooooo….now are you as confused as i am with this “relationship”?? lol
well…as the summer break passes…so does my understanding of my status with him lol. for example…one day he called me and expected me to be on girlfriend mode and i, of course, not knowing what the hell to do, because i don’t know where i stand, said something that upset him and caused me to get eh dial tone once more lol lol…it’s funny,but it pisses me off at the same time. in his defense i was wrong for tryna crack a joke when he was in a serious mood. yea….i did have one of those “d*mn you play too much” moments. however, this misunderstanding had a little hidden epiphany.
after talking to my best friends about the situation i realized that i was kind of messing something up for myself. it’s weird because i never noticed how as i continue to push him away, he continues to come forward. don’t ask me why his persistence has just caught my attention because i don’t even know. well…..let me not say that. it’s like this….since the last relationship i had was so tragic and so bad, i guess i unknowingly blocked my heart away from any male contact. i never thought i would be one of those type of women that are really stand-offish and are so closed hearted that all men she comes in contact with don’t get treated right.
i’m not saying that he is the man for me….but who am i to say he’s not the man for me? i could possibly, strong emphasis on the word possibly, be missing out on something good. soooo i kind of decided to give him a try. we will see how everything works out when i get back to FL….because you know distance is a very big factor in relationships.
although i am still quite confused about where i stand with him, i’m just gonna go with the flow until we are once again reunited and we can have this discussion face-to-face. the best thing about that is, he won’t be able to hang up in my face lol lol :)